Since Anna was just weeks old she has found comfort in this…
Yep, some may see it as repulsive, gross, ugly and dirty ( even though I swear it is clean!). I wash it at least once a week and it still (even when coming out of the dryer) has an odor that can only be described as “odd”. It used to look like this… pink (it wasn’t always that charming shade of grey), fluffy, oh-so-soft, and new.
Anyways… Anna has offered many times in recent months, to give Micah her “Dinky” (Anna’s given name to her source of comfort) and has even put it in his crib on countless occasions as to say “here you go, Micah!” However, as soon as bedtime rolls around she is quick to retrieve it. :)
This morning had a moment that caused me to laugh, and also ask the question…”you are just now noticing this!!!!?????????????”
As we were getting ready for our day, I hear a very LOUD “OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!” followed by a very sincere and hurtful crying. Anna came running out of the room holding “dinky” with tears streaming down her face and said…… “MOMMY DINKY HAS A HOLE IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
ummm…… I kind of laughed, thinking……………… “A hole?- try 50 holes!!!”…………………The thing is basically being held together only by Anna’s love for it. Every time I throw that thing in the wash, I wait to find it shredded in the bottom of the washer and no longer salvageable. So I guess for just a moment Anna was able to see her “friend” tattered and torn like everyone else sees it and it was sad to her. I asked her if she wanted to get rid of it and she quickly said…… “No, you need to fix it!!!!” I guess I found it hard to believe that she was just now noticing how beat up Dinky was. But when you love something as much as Anna loves this blanket, I guess you are blinded to it’s flaws, holes and yes… even, the odors.
Come to think of it…Anna looks at her Dinky much like God looks at us. How blemished we are, torn, beaten, “stinky” even, but yet He loves us… washes us over and over with His grace and longs to be close to us despite all imperfections. He never wants to get rid of us, but holds us in a place of honor and offers us His Spirit that can indeed fix our imperfections and patch our hole filled hearts.
(Had no intention of writing a devotional here… funny how God reveals Himself in even the littlest of things…)
So… Anna may hang on to “stinky dinky” (my name for it) for a while longer ……and really… that is fine with me. :)